I think over the last year my social anxiety has taken a turn for the worst which sucks because I don’t want that. I was really working at overcoming it. O was trying.
But honestly since September of 2016 I’ve sorta just fallen off the map. I was never big on social media but even with my blog I’ve been scarce.
To be honest I think part of it was me not wanting others badgering me about what I’m doing and comparing themselves to me just because ice had so many health challenges and even though I am overcoming some hurdles I’m still moving at a slower pace. I’m still proud of myself. But I don’t want virtual strangers diminishing my progress.
Another thing is that I’ve been going out way less. I mean I went to a uni of 35 000 people I had to deal with people all the time. I had a very sociable job. Those thing s being gone means very little going out and now when I go out I feel immediate stress.
I get the butterflies, then I get clumsy, I’ve basically become a fulltime space cadet which has led to even more embarrassing encounters. I don’t know but it seems like people who I’ve avoided for years have somehow started poping up everywhere at the worst of times.
I know I need to work on it. I need to get back out there again and get back to where I was socially. Because I do like having friends and meaningful relationships. But it can be tough when you’ve made yourself a hermit.